#BeHereTomorrow

It’s World Suicide Prevention Day today. If you’ve been around these parts for a while, you know my story and my multiple brushes with death by suicide. This year, I didn’t want to rehash those stories. You can always go to the archive and read them if you wish and I encourage you to doContinue reading “#BeHereTomorrow”

Queer as Folk – Growing Up Gay in Jesusland, USA

“Why do you think I asked you to get lunch with me today?” I asked my best friend. “I have an idea, but I don’t want to offend you.” He said. “Just say it, I think you might surprise yourself.” “Is it because you want to tell me you’re gay?” In that moment, a weightContinue reading “Queer as Folk – Growing Up Gay in Jesusland, USA”

When it’s not the Most Wonderful Time of the Year

The holidays can be hard for many of us, myself included. This last week, for me, has proven to be very difficult. I’m trying to keep my head above the waters of responsibility, gifts, and my own mental well being. It’s proving to be more difficult than I thought it would be. My care routineContinue reading “When it’s not the Most Wonderful Time of the Year”

Please Stay

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. If you know anything at all about my story, you know my history with mental illness and suicide. It’s days like today that put everything I fight for into perspective. I’ve been thinking a lot the past 24 hours about the nexus of all of this, what was oneContinue reading “Please Stay”

The Blog Post Everything in Me is Telling Me Not to Write

A quick note: The title of this post says it all: I am going to struggle my way through writing this, for a multitude of reasons. Another note: There is really no controversy here and you may think the title is “clickbaity” but understand something: What I’m about to reveal is something that has traumatizedContinue reading “The Blog Post Everything in Me is Telling Me Not to Write”

We Need to Stop Making Light of Psych Wards

You see it on TV all the time, ghost hunter shows exploring an old psychiatric hospital. You’ve seen movies such as One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest and you think that must be what it’s like, but it’s not. There were no ghosts, no demons, and at least where I was, no Nurse Ratched. Lately, I’ve noticed more and moreContinue reading “We Need to Stop Making Light of Psych Wards”

What You Get Wrong About My Panic Attacks

Heavy breathing, heart racing, palms sweating, crying and even screaming – I was having another panic attack. It was the middle of the summer of 2012 and I had just graduated high school, an accomplishment I was proud of. I was also having massive panic attacks at least three times daily, which were by theContinue reading “What You Get Wrong About My Panic Attacks”