I had to put down my cat this week. Blitzen has been a part of my life since the 6th grade and he has seen every iteration of me from puberty to adulthood. He was there when I was being bullied to the point of near-death in middle school and high school. He saw me struggleContinue reading “Partings”
Author Archives: Tim Coe
12.3.09
I know it’s been quite a while since I’ve been around these parts. I want to talk about the most recent development in my life: An official PTSD diagnosis. For many years now, I’ve suspected I suffered from PTSD. The signs were all there. Flashbacks, nightmares, triggers. Lately, however, things have been more tough. ForContinue reading “12.3.09”
A Letter to Un-Affirming Family
Dear family, You know who you are. You know who I am. Yet, I feel I still have to hide from you. I still fear your reaction if I’m fully myself around you. You’re my flesh and blood, you’re supposed to know me the best, yet here you are, not wanting to know me atContinue reading “A Letter to Un-Affirming Family”
The Year That Wasn’t
2020. It started with World War III. Remember? When we almost went to war with Iran? I bet you don’t. So much has transpired in the world between then and now, it’s hard to keep track of everything. One minute, it feels like this year went by in a flash, the next, we forget thatContinue reading “The Year That Wasn’t”
Old Me
It wasn’t too long ago that I was a religious fundamentalist with a horrible view of self and a bad mental state. I’ve been thinking about him a lot lately. I’ve felt the need to apologize for him much throughout the last number of years. Man, he got so much wrong. But I’m learning notContinue reading “Old Me”
10.6.16
Four years ago today, my life changed forever and in ways I would’ve never expected. When I came out as gay four years ago, I did so with caution. If I were to have come out today, I probably would word some things differently, and maybe the whole blog post I wrote back then wouldContinue reading “10.6.16”
#BeHereTomorrow
It’s World Suicide Prevention Day today. If you’ve been around these parts for a while, you know my story and my multiple brushes with death by suicide. This year, I didn’t want to rehash those stories. You can always go to the archive and read them if you wish and I encourage you to doContinue reading “#BeHereTomorrow”
Gay Christian
From my earliest memories I was taught God loved me, but somewhere over those years, that message got lost. I went to a very conservative evangelical Christian school growing up that gave me views about my faith, my humanity, and my sexuality that were very toxic. Being gay was something I could never openly beContinue reading “Gay Christian”
Queer as Folk – Growing Up Gay in Jesusland, USA
“Why do you think I asked you to get lunch with me today?” I asked my best friend. “I have an idea, but I don’t want to offend you.” He said. “Just say it, I think you might surprise yourself.” “Is it because you want to tell me you’re gay?” In that moment, a weightContinue reading “Queer as Folk – Growing Up Gay in Jesusland, USA”
When it’s not the Most Wonderful Time of the Year
The holidays can be hard for many of us, myself included. This last week, for me, has proven to be very difficult. I’m trying to keep my head above the waters of responsibility, gifts, and my own mental well being. It’s proving to be more difficult than I thought it would be. My care routineContinue reading “When it’s not the Most Wonderful Time of the Year”
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